Into existence

I find myself talking about the music to people, as if it's a real thing now. A tangible thing! This music. Of course it is! It wasn't always though... I used to tuck it away, and I kept it pretty private and quiet. Are you kidding me? It's one of the most important elements of me being me.

It's not that I need validation from other people. It's the fact that I finally decided it was a good thing, and good to share. And that required me to acknowledge that it's real, and that it's that important to me. Ultimately, it doesn't matter what other people think (although it's wonderful and reinforcing if they like it), what matters is that I have a voice and use it.

Music is to be heard!


Let it out!

The dichotomy of Alone

Thanks to Amy for this great video.

How to be Alone

On the flip-side...my personal thoughts on loss of companionship. Companionship is a bare-bones basic want/need that people have. Just having another person around...someone who cares on a basic level and is just there. A human being that breathes and thinks and speaks their mind. Or even a pet. for some people, the love a pet generates is great companionship.

I like my alone time. There are certain things I am able to accomplish in that space and no other. Part of me is bothered that some days I'm not ok with alone...because I want to be OK with alone. I pride myself on being fairly independent, and self-sufficient...and I am for the most part. I want my basic happiness to be self-generated, and it generally is.

But it's ok to not be ok with it on some days, right?

Late winter

It's cold outside. I'm staying in with my thoughts.
Out of angst is borne clarity.

Some video for Kickstarter

Did some video with Shanti Martin for the Kickstarter project coming up at Fitton Green Natural Area. I've lived in Corvallis my whole life and I don't recall ever being here. It is wide, gorgeous, peaceful...fantastic view, especially of Mary's Peak.
Update: As my mom found out, this is a relatively new area of Corvallis...it's the newest park/recreational space in Benton County.

Thanks for sharing your talent, Shanti. And thanks for taking pictures, James.

Thank you, Stephanie!

I just wanted to thank Stephanie Zahlmann for being so talented and awesome. Thank you!!

People! Call her.

www.stephaniezahlmann.blogspot.com

Something about the rain...

There is something about the rain...I love cracking the window so I can hear it and smell it.

I was just wondering why I have such strong feeling attached to it.

I do recall opening the window next to my bed as a child and positioning my face near so I could smell the freshness, as I drifted off to sleep. I have the window next to me open a crack right now, and it's raining. I feel content, happy, safe, and connected.