Floodgates

Sometime last year, around the holidays, the floodgates opened. I started writing music again and haven't stopped. It has felt really good. Healthy, like blood running strong through my veins. It can also feel a bit scary, like a force to be reckoned with. Are we all sometimes scared of ourselves? of what we're capable of feeling? and then being ok with it?

When I complete a song, I feel heard. Even if only by myself.

I think, to allow yourself to feel what you really feel is to love yourself.

These are the thoughts on my mind before I get ready for bed tonight.

The picture of the heart rock is for you, Amy!

'What I want'

I've been pondering over the reasons behind writing this last song that I recorded...and I don't know about you, but I love dissecting lyrics! If I can't hear or understand the lyrics to a song, I usually look them up. So I thought I'd explain mine for those who are curious. They are pretty fresh and personal, since I just wrote the song a couple weeks ago.
Here are the lyrics:


What I Want


I decided
what I want
I'm making a list, underlined, and in big font
I've been thinking
Working my mind
You are what I've wanted this whole time

Cuz without me
You're thoughtful and kind
Without me
You make your way
Without me
You love just the same
Without me
You're ok

I decided
I am a fan
I get what it takes to be a true man
I am out there
I wanna be part
Let me be clear the intentions of my heart

Cuz without you
I'm thoughtful and kind
Without you
I make my way
Without you
I love just the same
Without you
I'm ok

And I, I will love you
for all of those things that make you, you
And if you choose to love me too
My word is golden I promise to you

We are here now
sharing the air
Two separate people who promise to be there
I'm with you
Singing my part
Now I can love you with all of my heart

Cuz together
we're thoughtful and kind
together we make our way
together we love just the same
together we're ok

Chorus repeat

I decided
what I want
I'm making a list, underlined, and in big font
I've been thinking
working my mind
You are what I've wanted this whole time

You are what I've wanted this whole time

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It's a love song for the future.

It's about being solid and whole in who you are, no matter what. Being secure about your place in the world, and your relationship with the universe. Loving life.
All of these things are merely enhanced and magnified by the pictured, and hoped for, relationship.

I think that sums it up.



















Bass player at Andina's restaurant in Portland last Feb.

Ready...set...go!

Hi everyone,


This is my first music-related blog! I decided it would be interesting/fun to document the happenings along my musical journey. I've never talked or written much about my songwriting publicly, so this is exciting for me!

Music, music, music. What can I say about it? Writing music is how I express myself. My emotions simmer and perculate until something bubbles over into a song. When it's finished, and it says exactly what I intended to say, or expresses exactly how I'm feeling, it's the most gratifying feeling in the world.

I was inspired and influenced by many people as a child. Fred Child (from NPR) used to live across the street from me when I was little. I used to go over and sit on his porch steps and listen to him play piano. My piano teacher Maureen; I was lucky to have the same piano teacher for all those years of lessons. Musical friends in high school and college. Favorite music artists. My very favorite is William Fitzsimmons. http://www.williamfitzsimmons.com/ His music is so honest. My brother and I were lucky enough to get to watch him perform in early August of this year. We even met him after the show!

So, what am I doing? My goal is to get all my songs recorded, and have a finished product I can be proud of. I would like to put them together in an album or two. I haven't planned much past there. I'm recording at Wild Rose Studios in Corvallis. http://www.wildrosestudios.com/



The most important thing to me at this point is to be true to myself, to be authentic. Not write to please others, or to produce what I think they want to hear. It's tough. I'm not used to being so open and exposed. I know I'm not an expert. I find myself in a very vulnerable position. But I do want to share with people.

I have a few songs posted here on my fb music page: www.facebook.com/pages/Katie-D/292731998033 if you'd like to listen. :)



Thank you for your support along my journey.

Katie D
p.s. My next recording date is tentatively set for November 4th - excited!!